To find yourself, you must first risk everything. The most interesting things in Lily's life happened to other people, and that was just how Lily liked it. She loved sitting around into the early morning hours with Amy, Paul, Rachel, Dennis, hearing their stories of violent, experimental love lives, hitchhiking, South Miami Beach bacchanalian feasts. She liked other people to be young and reckless. For herself, she liked her lows to not be too low and her highs not to be too high. She soaked up Amy's dreams, and Joshua's dreams, and Andrew's dreams, she went to the movies three days a week - oh the vicarious thrill of them! She meandered joyously through the streets of New York, read the paper in St. Mark's square, and lived on in today, sleeping, painting, dancing, dreaming on a future she could not fathom. Lily loved her desultory life, until yesterday and today. -- From Lily